Books:

White Teeth

In the Rainforest

The Lost Diaries of Franz Hals

A Woman Soldier's Own Story

Goat Girls

The Cave

Marie Antoinette The Journey

The Fact of a Doorframe

In Cold Blood

The Janissary Tree

Short Stories from the New Yorker

Fix It February was a bust. I am hoping for a revival before the end of March. All I have is hope.

A word on revolution:

• Today, I took my final midterm, went to a lecture on Mao Zedong and the Peasant Movement in China during the 1920s, worked for a little bit before throwing up and going home. Then, I sat in bed and read about the foundations of rural Chinese society, Frida and Diego, and the Mexican Revolution.
• The words I have recently been hearing more than any other are: REVOLUTION, STALINISM, MAO ZE DONG, PEASANT MOVEMENTS, RUSSIA, 1911, 1917, THE TREATY OF VERSAILLES, INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION, IMPERIALISM, OPIUM
• I am turning into quite the history aficionado. I am currently reading about Marie Antoinette and the French Revolution. I am also still reading about rural peasant society.
• I am going to the library sometime this weekend. I am going to check out the following books:

1. The Elegance of the Hedgehog
2. Frida Kahlo and Diego Rivera
3. On Revolution

• Tomorrow, I am going to skip work again, apply for scholarships, order two dollhouses, buy watercolors and learn to paint. 
• No matter how much I read, there is a part of life that I cannot learn through books alone.
• It is so strange to me how so much can be going on at the same time. Take for examples: 1920s involved flappers, the overthrow of the Mexican dictatorship, and a mass peasant uprising in China; 1950s, Frida died and my father was born. 
• All of this affects me in the most serious ways.
• -isms that affect me: communism, stalinism, totalitarianism, schism, heroism, altruism, leninism, homesickism, sickofsnowism, missinghimism.

I NEED TO LEARN ABOUT GRACE.

Tomorrow, I am going home.

Franz Wright, "The Poem"

It was like getting a love letter from a tree

Eyes closed forever to find you ---

There is a life which

if I could have it

I would have chosen for myself from the beginning